lost

im being absorbed by the passing moments...days...nights...one in the same...so tired...so awake...so restless...this damn flyff! b4 i drew...wrote...did website. now a week has gone by and i haf nothing to show for it!!!

i dunno wat to say there never is ne thing to say...im just...writing...writing...typing...meaningless words-- why am i overemotional!?!? i try not to be but everything is a big deal to me. the moon is a big deal to me..itz so pretty...songs r big deals. words, pictures. ne thing! i can cry to ANYTHING and i mean literally....sigh....sigh...sigh...sigh...maybe itz like that book i read. i dont remember the title...that girl twho can feel pplz emotions so much that she gotta put up a shield...i gotta do that or something

friendships, especially relationships. all big deals to me. huge. sigh -_-

memories...but not memories. my memories are not memories..they are feelings.

and they all mix...and wash together...and there's this poison deep down inside...that infects me...and it spreads thru me...and all i can do is silently suffer...while trying to fight it at the same time

fly away